What is with everyone trying to be “different”? It’s like everyone’s so scared to be seen as the same – like they’re running away from things in fear they will be viewed as tbs or conformists or sheep. How very contradictory, as thats exactly what they are, no matter how much their outer appearance changes. I’m not really talking about new trends or new fashion, which is (obviously) ‘different’ from the old. Rather, I’m confused as to why many people are so influenced by the choices of society, i.e. “I don’t want *this* because too many people have it and I don’t want to be a conformist!”
So you’ve found your original self – your TRUE identity, after all these years of soul-searching – and you’re NOT being influenced by the idea of being different in society? Well that’s great, but if so, can you please get the fuck off my facebook newsfeed? Anyone who is content with their identity would definitely not need to post about it for attention on the internet, right? Look at me, I wear this, I do this, I want this, I have this, I’m so different.
Also why do I rage so much at people who are a waste of time to talk to? I guess I feel like, since I don’t give a shit about them, I don’t care how they view me. That’s probably not a good idea, since I know so many people already hate me and it’s not like I can say “Oh well! Not like I can do anything about that!” because the reality is, I can – and I’m making the situation worse. I’m so used to just dishing out exactly what I feel and think about people when people don’t act the way I think they should. It’s not all their fault that I can’t stand them and its not like they asked for my opinion, but sometimes I can’t help myself. This is why I never want to meet people and why I don’t want new friends – because thats more people to hate me.
On the other hand, I’m not totally at fault for the disputes that have happened between me and people. It seems as if, people think theres something wrong with me – mental problems or something. Therefore, they think it justifies their actions to start arguments with me and they are empowered by the fact that many people dislike me/probably agree with them. “I never judge people unless I know them”, they say. Well they are full of shit. I’m sorry I have strong opinions on.. well.. everything, but if you know me then you don’t need to start a fucking argument with me, since you totally know how it’ll end up, you know, knowing me. In fact, if knowing me means you can see how much of a bad person I am etc. etc. then don’t talk to me and just ignore that I am there: e.g., delete and block. Please. What the fuck are you trying to prove, by all of this? That you’re different?
Go ahead and compare me to the other psycho creatures running through our Asian community in Brisbane. No matter how ‘slow’, ‘unintelligent’ and ‘slutty’ you think I am, what makes you any better? How respected are you in this town? OH wait thats right.. no one outside your group has ever heard of you before. 
and btw, your English isn’t as good as you think it is. Sorry.
June 20th, 2011 at 12:14 PM
hey katie,
i need some advice.. what do you do when everyone hates you and you’ve tried your best to resolve whatever they’re hating on but they’re reluctant to forgive. Even worse.. they’re gossiping and making everything so bad ):